.doing things.
I had to work all weekend, so I’m recovering from that. I think my allergies are messing me up as well.
I went to the gym yesterday AND today. I’ve been eating really well, and I’m going to the gym tomorrow, too. I got really inspired after a horrible trip to the mall yesterday. The mirrors there are crappy and all of the clothes are somehow to small. They should fit!
I’m starting a new savings plan:
- For every day that I do not buy a latte, I’ll deposit $5.00 into my savings account
- For every day that I do not eat out, I’ll deposit $10.00
- For every instance that I could order a drink (or get one from the vending machine), and do not, I’ll deposit that much into the savings account
I’m going to start saving for a new wardrobe. I’m going to need it! I also need to weed out my old wardrobe, and get rid of things that don’t fit/things I don’t wear. I can also sell that junk and put that in the fund, too!
Things are really great right now. I asked a boy on a date. He didn’t say no or yes, and while I wish that he had said yes, I’m just proud of myself for doing it! It’s a little rough, but I’m really trying to focus on making myself happy. I’ve been hearing that negativity breeds more negativity – that it attracts negative things to your life. I’m not sure if this is true or not, but thinking back on things, it tends to make sense. I’m trying to counteract that with a good attitude. I’m even trying to mellow out my anger on the road. I don’t really have RAGE, per se, I just call people lots of bad names. I’m trying to reduce even that. I need to not let it get to me so much.
Anyway, everything’s been working for the last few days. Let’s hope it sticks!
I’m back
Many things have happened since my last entry. The most important thing is that I turned thirty! I went to Amsterdam for the occasion. I went alone, but I had a terrific time. I met a lot of people. It was great. I’ve never traveled alone to anywhere that I didn’t already know someone. I’m not an outgoing person by nature, but I was able to jump away from that. I reached down and grabbed what has always been lurking inside of me. When I returned home, I wasn’t the same person. I don’t know that I am super outgoing now, but in Amsterdam I was able to do a lot of thinking and reflecting.
I’ve re-prioritized myself. I’ve realized that instead of changing my life bite by bite, I’m trying to put the entire buffet on one plate. That’s not going to work. I was watching a Suze Orman lecture on television last night. She made a good point about cleanliness. I think that is going to be my main focus. I can worry about the other things later. My home is cluttered and in disarray, as is everything else in my life. I think once my home is clean and organized, everything else will come together much easier.
My bathroom is still clean. My kitchen is now clean, too. I’ ve taken pictures. I will add them when I can.
A friend of mine is coming in from out of town. I haven’t had the time to clean the entire apartment, but the two other main areas, living room and kitchen, are on their way to looking better. My problem right now is that I want to sort everything. I should focus on getting organized, and then dig a little at a time. This way, I won’t be so overwhelmed.
My friend will be here on Thursday. After her visit, I hope to re-group and get focused again.
